SBS Soggy Brain Syndrome

Hesitating to write what is on my mind, and continuing to mull it over and over seems like such a chore.  Sometimes swimming in a sea of thoughts that do not make a very coherent whole makes for a soggy brain.  That's it, my brain has Soggy Brain Syndrome (SBS for short). If every one else in the world can have a syndrome, why can't I?  Being one of those people that has to rest after being with new people or crowds for any extended period of time, SBS has taken over my body at this point.  This weekend I went with a very good fellow friend in ministry to a woman's retreat.  We laughed, cried, talked, slept, shopped, and had a great time. I actually had to sit with women I didn't know, talk to women I didn't know, eat with, sing with, worship with, and sleep (almost) in the same room with women that I didn't know.  I really do love people, women in particular, but it wears me out to be with people that I do not know for any length of time.  I did manage to take a nap on Saturday afternoon and that helped.   Everything about the weekend was fabulous.  Somewhere along the way I have finally learned, well maybe not completely learned, that it is OK to be an introvert.  I married an extrovert who at times has not always understood me and my quirks.  At the same time I have not always understood how he could be with people 24/7.  The world needs us both.  Ken will be the first one to tell you that he has learned his need for solitude from me, and I will be the first one to tell you that I have learned that I need people.  Actually, I always knew that, but people scare me.  I have learned over the years that people are not as scary as I think, and that all people are in so many different ways alike.  Women, whether they are fat or skinny, pretty or plain, learned or simple minded, are all insecure in some way.  Some of us really try to cover that up in a big way, but underneath it all we worry about what other women think about us. 

The way that I have, to a small degree or another, have tried to over come this is by knowing who made me, we all have gifts and they are not all the same, and to reach out to the women around me, and to listen to them.  I have found the more self gets out of the way, the more content I am to just "be."  

Today I cleaned out and up the entire downstairs.  I moved boxes, furniture, dusted, swept, ironed, and caught up on all the laundry.  As I was busy doing, my mind was busy also.  It was processing the weekend, praying for my kids, husband, and friends.  I listened to talk radio, and sang praises to the songs on the Christian radio station.  I planned the rest of my week, vacuumed, dusted, and hung up my hammock on the porch.  My SBS is much better tonight.  I will sleep well and wake up ready to see or talk to people tomorrow.  I am much more content knowing that God created me an introvert than I ever have been before.  I think that makes for a better friend, wife, mother, and daughter of the King.  

Waiting for the Bridegroom........Lynn