Assassination 101

Once again I feel as if I am living a nightmare.  Oh, yea, I had a nightmare last night.  When I woke up, I realized it was all real.  It was about how people can lie and get away with it.  Assassinate some one's character by innuendo and get away with it, and of course do it all the while the person is not there to tell the truth, or to show documentation to the otherwise.  These are all the elements of how to assassinate someone, and yet still allow them to live and breathe. How can people do this, not just to a godly man, but can do this while God looks on, is beyond me.  In my nightmare, I lived out all we have gone through since February 24Th, at the end of my dream I was dragging a chair down the road in one hand with a pillow in my other hand, crying out to God, saying "how can I serve You after this?"  I do not want to stay here, Oh God, save me from my own self.  How can it possibly be true that, "no good deed goes unpunished?"  God save me, and I will be saved.  Where is God's justice?  If you are a friend of mine, which now I have no idea who is or who is not, please pray for me and my family.  The man I love, live with, cry with, and laugh with, who loves God and His people, is once again lying on the floor in a pool of blood.  God help us.